My car accident in the first week of June — I deemed it as punishment from God. My new, grand, beautiful car got salvaged. For the next two weeks I was distraught. Every time the scene played before my mind, my hand would automatically cover my eyes, even when I was on the prayer mat saying my daily prayers.
Why I deemed it as punishment? I won’t go into details, but the thoughts I had in those days preceding the accident weren’t good ones about someone. God let me know I can’t be a judge, and I do seek God’s forgiveness. I hope He forgives me, and won’t let harm near me, my family, and all those who fear Him about retribution.
Early in the morning after Fajr prayer I read this Ayat in the Quran, Surah Al Anbiyaa (The Prophets)
كُلُّ نَفْسٍ ذَائِقَةُ الْمَوْتِ ۗ وَنَبْلُوكُمْ بِالشَّرِّ وَالْخَيْرِ فِتْنَةً ۖ وَإِلَيْنَا تُرْجَعُونَ ﴿٣٥﴾
35. Every soul will taste death. And We test you with evil and with good as trial; and to Us you will be returned.
God test us in our daily lives, and I hope He never finds me wanting again.
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