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Doubt

There was a time, whenever anyone (who maybe didn’t like me, and would create doubts in my mind about myself), would say something about me, I would naively believe. I would think he , or she must be right.

I was terribly insecure about my appearance as a teenager despite having a cream and rose complexion. Hearing just  a few words would plunge me  into the depths of depression. It must have been of  having no mother to talk to, or having no person close enough who could booster my self confidence. 

I don’t exactly remember when I started disbelieving mean people around me. I stopped having doubts about myself. A few years back, one lady in particular upon seeing me would say, “What’s happened to you? You look ill, and gray!” With a couple of words she would make me feel sick.

The smile on my face would freeze, and I would think something must be wrong with me. That used to be her opening gambit. Then I got her game, and turned the tables on her. “Really!”, I would say, “But what has happened to you? You don’t look yourself!” She would lapse into silence.

Now she never says those words to me which plunged me downwards.

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Saving Life

I had an unexpected guest one morning. She was my d in law’s mother. Looking at her I saw she was crying. Concerned I asked her, “What’s the matter?” In between sniffles she told me that her d in law L was having an abortion. Greatly perturbed, she had asked L not to do it. She had asked her son to stop L from doing it. Her son had replied that it was totally L’s decision, and she could do what she wanted to do.

On an impulse I picked up the phone and dialed L’s number. Thankfully she was still at home and had not left for the hospital. For the next one hour I kept on talking to her, although I was not getting a positive response. I told her that God doesn’t like for us to take a life. It is clearly written in the Quran. Her reason was that at this stage she could not take care of a third child. I told her, she should have thought of this before. For now she should have this child and later on she could take a number of precautions and can quit having further children.

Three years later I saw L. She was all smiles when she pushed her daughter towards me and said,”This is who you saved.”

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