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Tooting My Horn

  
A Persian Court Scene.         Photo credit: Google

I am listing my faults so if Ben Huberman takes up my suggestion for tomorrow’s daily prompt, it should be: Write your faults. 

In a religion class, the teacher asked me, “What are your faults?”

I was tongue tied. How could I (in front of the whole class) mention the faults in my personality? I wanted to, but held my tongue. Why? Many remember and it comes out at the wrong moment when you are least expecting it, telling to your embarrassment to all and sundry.

One is I get upset easily. Second one is: When someone wrongs me, I keep on talking about that person and can’t stop. Third one: I take time in forgiving. 

My daughter’s motto in life towards me is:  Don’t let mama say anything bad about anyone. The minute I start she says, Stop mama and I am forced to check in unwillingly, and if I continue? Can you believe? The phone stops working. It conspire against me. I maybe boiling inside with injustice, and long to get the angry feelings out. I have stopped saying anything.

My fourth fault: I try to please everyone coming in contact with me. My (late) husband named me Darbari. It means Courtier — who agrees to what his monarch says and keeps him entertained.

According to big brother Lala, don’t be so sweet that people should swallow you, and don’t be so bitter that people should spit you. 

Life is a balancing act. Isn’t it?

DAILY PROMPT

These Horns Were Made for Tooting

Today, share something you love about yourself — don’t be shy, be confident! — but that few other people know about you or get to see very often.

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Peace to All

There were times when the Green Eyed Monster would make a beeline to my heart. Sad! I would watch kids with their mothers being hugged and kissed. I couldn’t understand, “Why my mother wasn’t alive? Why God had to take her?”

I would watch having no reply. Then father died too.

After marriage I didn’t have a parent’s home to go to, or a mother who could come and help me with the kids when they were born; or the times I was sick.

There was always the question, “Why God?”

Then the pilgrimage to Mecca happened, and with that I was finally at peace. Before going my younger brother in law with a smirk on his face asked, “What are you going to pray for? Riches?” I could discern the inner laughter he was having at my expense.

I looked at his face for a moment and answered, “Forgiveness from God, and eternal peace”.

His mouth remained open for a while.

Daily Prompt: Green-Eyed Monster

Tell us about the last time you were really, truly jealous of someone. Did you act on it? Did it hurt your relationship?

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Proud

When was the last time someone told you they were proud of you?

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Who was going to tell me that he, or she is proud of me? What a tricky question?

I phoned my daughter, and asked her, “are you proud of me?”

She started, “you had no mother to follow a role model……….” She started laughing , “haha…”
Oops! I was getting alarmed. Was she laughing at me?
“No, I can’t hold my tears”. She cried in earnest.
I did get an earful of praise from her. No use writing, that’s so contrived.

Although I suppose I can write about my late husband. Two weeks before he died, we returned to our rooms from the hospital. He was drained of energy after his chemotherapy session. I fed him chicken soup, and helped him to bed. As I was covering him with a sheet, he remarked that he was not going to make it.

I couldn’t stop crying, although I always took care not to cry in front of him. I asked his forgiveness for anything I may have done in my life with him. He tried to get up, but he had gone so weak. With tears in his eyes, he asked my forgiveness, and said that he was proud that I was his wife…….

https://dailypost.wordpress.com/dp_prompt/proud/

Forgiveness

I always pray for my dear ones and those whom I like. Sometimes I stop remembering those people in my prayers who hurt me with their words or deeds. I know I shouldn’t do it. I feel guilty all the time. Somehow my heart does not forgive easily. I do try to tell myself that God forgives so many of our mistakes. God loves those who FORGIVES.

I should BETTER myself but somehow forgiveness doesn’t come easily to me. It sounds terrible, doesn’t it? 😞

Anyway I hope I get over this trait of mine some day. Amen.

My Favorite Prayer

ربنا فغفرلنا ذنوبنا و كفر عنا سياتنا و توفنا مع الأبرار

ربنا و آتنا ما وعدتنا علا رسلك و تخذنا يوم القيامته

انك لا تخلف الميعاد

Translation

Our Lord, forgive us our sins, and wipe out our evil deeds and make us die with the truly pious

Our Lord, fulfill what you promised us through Your Messengers, and disgrace us not on the Day

of Resurrection; indeed You never go back on Your promise

Quran, chapter 3 Al Imran, verses (ayats) 193-194.

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