It’s Difficult

Don’t have the heart

That can be hard enough

Won’t break and feel anything

It’s tough for me

To go look for old vistas

Gone lost in time

I can’t nudge aside feelings

Ah! It’s difficult, too exhausting for me




Ode to a Playground

A place from your past or childhood, one that you’re fond of, is destroyed. Write it a memorial.

The Last Stone

The stone will simply say;  

In the name of God, Who is Merciful

Here lies …….

Date of death ………

Where my last remains will be buried, I don’t know?

I can’t foretell. Will I be buried alongside my husband in his ancestral village? Or here in Houston? Or in Saudi Arabia, if I am on a visit to my daughter? That remains to be seen.

I don’t want to make a choice, so as not to make any difficulty for my children. I have heard that in Saudi Arabia they pour chemicals on a dead body so that it disintegrates quickly, and the grave is left to another dead body. Obviously that is too horrible to contemplate. I hope God in His Infinite Mercy doesn’t let me have that fate. Ameen.



Immortalized in Stone

Your personal sculptor is carving a person, thing or event from the last year of your life. What’s the statue of and what makes it so significant?

Life’s a Candy Store

As a grownup I still like eating candy. Though the only one I buy is lemon gum, and restrict it to two a day. My daughter had a box full of chocolates atop the fridge. I almost finished the box by myself when I visited her. To keep myself in check every time when I am in a shop I tell myself  there will be a next time to buy them. The next time kepts getting postponed.

As a six year old my favorite person was uncle N. He was the one person who bought me candies. I remember trailing behind him on our way to shop for candies. He was married to my paternal aunt A. He stayed at our home whenever he was in our city.

He was a very calm and soft spoken person. Lala (big brother) and uncle N would be discussing politics at the dinner table, and I would jump right in with my own set of questions. Why is the sky blue in color? From where does the rain comes? Who are our friends? He would reply patiently to each question never telling me to stop asking them.

He was a fixture at our home. He was jobless, and often tried out new business ventures. Those failed too. In between, our home was his staying place.

All that changed with the advent of our step mom. She threw out our old servants and hired new ones. After that she wanted uncle N gone from our home.

Initially father refused to do so. She concocted a lie. It must have been pretty serious. I never saw him again. For me the thought of candy will always be associated with him.



Life’s a Candy Store

You get to be a 6-year-old kid again for one day and one day only β€” plan your perfect 24 hours. Where do you go, what do you do, and with whom?

Yin to my Yang

If people waited for their soulmate to materialize, they would had to wait forever. How do you know the person across from you is your soulmate? It can be a chance in a lifetime.

If I had known I had a soulmate somewhere in the world, I would have said no to father. He got me engaged at the age of fifteen to a man I had never seen and didn’t know. I got married when there was still a month left to my eighteenth birthday. Thank God I didn’t say no, otherwise I wouldn’t had my two lovely children.

 Love between two people grow when you work at it, and iron out your differences. It’s just like nurturing a plant to grow and spread.

R (who was twelve years older than me) and I were two completely different people. We weren’t the yin and yang. It wasn’t rosy all the way. As usual we were having a difference of opinion. He wasn’t listening to me. Throughly fed up with his pigheadedness, I told him,”I spent my lifetime with you on this earth, but I am going to ask God to give you someone else as a wife in the Hereafter. I won’t like to be your wife there”.

Before storming out of the room I heard him say, “And I am going to ask God to give you to me there too”.

I laughed, and my irritation with him evaporated in a second.

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Daily Prompt: Yin to My Yang

How do you define the term β€œsoulmate,” and do you believe in the existence of such a person β€” for you?

When Childhood Ends

My childhood ended at age five. The love and security ended with mother’s death. Father couldn’t cope with one teenager and four young ones on his own. We all got divided. Suddenly we didn’t have a home.

My three year old brother and I, got sent with uncle who was father’s younger brother. I grew up the instant we started living with uncle and aunt. I became a mother to my younger brother, looking after him and shielding him from being kicked or slapped by our cousins.

A few months later father came to see us. I kept crying till he agreed to take us along with him. 



When Childhood Ends

Write about a defining moment in your life when you were forced to grow up in an instant (or a series of instants).

Always Be There

When my husband died I found out there were those who disappeared from my life. It was as if for them I had stopped existing along with my husband. It was hard times. I needed them more.

It had happened before. When? When father died.I had forgotten it. 

I have been through lots of things in my life.

I know my my good and weak points.

I am contented with my inner self.

I am Myself.

I will always be there for me.

Must Not Fail

What is the one thing at which you are the most afraid of failing?

Pay it Forward


Whenever some one asks for help , or I sense it myself I do it with whatever means I have. I don’t expect anything in return. I seek my reward with God.

My son S had gone to a mosque for donating clothes and things for the needy. It was nearer Zuhr Prayer (noon prayer), so he decided to wait, say his prayer and then leave. A man came and asked him about the timings. The prayer time was at 1.45 pm. In between waiting for the Azan (the muezzin call to prayer) they got talking. 

He was a Palestinian refugee who is residing here.  He was working in Kuwait and used to send money to his wife and children in Palestine. After the war breakout, he shifted to U.S. He lost his papers somehow and to this day he is a refuge. He tried to go back but the land is under Israeli rule. They are not allowing him. He was telling my son he is a man without a country. Here he is not accepted as a citizen and he can’t go back. He hasn’t seen his family for the past fifteen years.

He supports himself by selling blankets (he stands at a corner) in downtown Houston. He gets them from a shopkeeper, sells them, and then pay the shopkeeper. A few days back a woman with two kids came. She was homeless and needed the blankets for her kids, since the nights are getting cooler. She didn’t have the money to pay him. She told him that she had some vouchers if he could accept them in place of money. He accepted the vouchers and gave the woman two blankets.

Later on when he checked the vouchers they were expired. Now he doesn’t know how he is going to pay back the shopkeeper? The blankets were 100 dollars each. He makes only 6-10 dollars profit on them which he spends on food and his upkeep.

My son gave him whatever was in his pockets. I felt so bad after hearing the story.

Today when I was reciting the Quran in the morning, I came to read these Ayats.

Below are Ayats 6, 7 and 9 from the Quran, 29th Surah Al Ankabut
Translation by Yusuf Ali

And if any strive (with might and main), they do so for their own souls: for Allah is free of all needs from all creation.

This means who strive to do good deeds they do it for their own benefits .(Sheen)

Translation by Yusuf Ali

Those who believe and work righteous deeds,- from them shall We blot out all evil (that may be) in them, and We shall reward them according to the best of their deeds.
Translation by Yusuf Ali

And those who believe and work righteous deeds,- them shall We admit to the company of the Righteous.


Pay It Forward

Tell us about a time when you responded to an act of kindness with one of your own.